Lack of Participation Award


Since moving to a new state, I have had to expend a lot of energy making new friends.

I’ve also been trying to maintain connections with other meaningful people in my life.

Turns out, I do not have the stamina.

I have grown increasingly more leery toward people. I don’t trust easily anyway, but it has become nearly impossible. I want to run away from everyone and towards no one.
But apparently, human interaction is important. Really freaking difficult, but important. So for all this writing about loneliness and human interaction and trying to be friends with people has been an exhaustive test of my resolve to fight back against social anxiety and not just hide under the covers. Being a natural extrovert has not helped any of this.

What do you do? How do you overcome all the fear and anxiety and regrets of friendships that haven’t worked out?


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