The Holiday Funk

The holidays are my husband’s favorite time of year. He loves decorating, shopping for gifts, wrapping presents, and seeing people’s faces when they open what he’s gotten them. He loves Christmas trees, Advent calendars, Christmas stories, claymation specials; any thing Christmas related- he’s on it. He refers to Christmas movies simply as “Christmases”. “Do you […]

The Long Road of Grief: Jim and Jean

    I used to believe that grief could be measured. That the amount of sorrow you should feel about something was some how dispensed to you and that you got less the further away you were from the epicenter of tragedy. The flaw in that system is that grief is not a controllable entity. […]

PTSD and Laughter

                          It was during a one act competition my junior year that I ironically won an award for playing a young actress who was struggling with dissociative identity disorder. I had no idea what was waiting in my mind. Looking at this picture […]

Healing and the Comparison Game

Everyone’s life is different. It’s just the truth. It seems that there are just as many disabilities as abilities and we see story after story of people overcoming obstacles. I just saw that someone- that I admit I was not particularly fond of in high school- has become a model. She has always had a […]

Okay? Okay.

Decapitation and other severed body parts are common in surrealist art, especially, of the female form and I can’t help but feel like this woman. Often. It seems lately that for every step I take forward, several are lost. For the amount of hours I clock with my nose to the proverbial grindstone, I find […]

Redefining My Dreams: 10 Things I’ve Let Go So That I Could Heal

  I was inspired this week by a friend, Kait, who could tell you the first, second, and third thing about struggling with chronic illness. She posted about having to give up an opportunity to study abroad in order to begin a more intensive medical regimen to push her Myasthenia Gravis into remission. She inspires me all […]

PTSD and Depression

              For those of us with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, symptoms can be any number of a wide variety. PTSD is an avoidance disorder it is the affect of your mind refusing to “deal with” or process trauma. Many people suffer from unprocessed trauma, but it doesn’t always manifest into a […]

You Is Strong

For those of you who haven’t seen or read, “The Help”. You probably should. Unless you are like me and you can only handle so much sad in one place, then you can make it halfway through the movie and keep promising yourself that one day you’ll finish it. Doug has taken a refrain he […]

Waiting Sucks, You’re Not Doing It Wrong

The Church is good. GOD knows they try. But some things that echo from well-intentioned pulpits and mouths fluent in “Christian-ese” can warp some pretty heavy things into some nasty half-truths. Let me just tell you now: WAITING SUCKS. Anticipation of good things can be exciting and thrilling! The arrival of something good like a […]

Getting Comfortable With Comfort

It seemed like I never had journaled since it had been so long. I’d thought to, meant to, should have; but the collection of my experiences, even day by day, has felt too arduous and painful to set paper to pen and recount each hateful occurence. Even now, the thought of recapping thevlast six months […]